It’s hard to find the words lately. I feel like I’ve said them all.

 I’ve decided to stop buying Sweet Leaf Tea in the glass bottles from now on. The advice on each bottlecap seems to mock me every day. “make love, not war.”  “be grateful for what you have” “the grass is always greener”..you get the picture. And all a gal wanted was to enjoy her tea.

 I’m enjoying my time alone and wonder whether or not that’s a good thing. I don’t know the difference between feeling lonely and being alone anymore. Maybe I’ve gotten used to it way before now. Or maybe the worst is yet to come. I kind of hope it is actually. It would give me a certain punishment I feel I deserve. But I can’t help this. Could I have prevented it? I try not to answer that one.

 I finally have time to think and find it’s harder than ever to do so. One of the things I’m enjoying actually is the not having to think. Nobody asking me questions I don’t have answers to.  Nobody to really talk to and that’s even okay I guess. The silence is peaceful. Ironically, gives me even more time to think. But for now, I’m taking a mental vacation so to speak. I don’t really know when I’ll be returning.

 I could live in my head forever.

You’d never know it, but I truly am a lucky, lucky girl.