I’m letting this settle

Again with a sigh

That creeps steadily and punctual

Through my tight pressed lips.

Pushed you away

And all of your truths

Recalling all the phrases

That escaped like rebels..

I want to take them back,

Every one.

Went digging in my own backyard

I scraped my knees again

On that same jagged ground

I refuse to make grass.

Here we go again..

I’ve been carefully broken,

Swinging on strings

Walking on eggshells,

And the storm clouds are hovering..

You waited for an answer,

There are things I can’t explain..

Can’t go on and keep this up,

I hope I can explain..

Nothing is definite

Except for uncertainty.

I am drowning again..

In my own backyard.